It’s been what??? 6 months in the corporate jungle?

the unabridged and informal version of the self-assessment I submitted in MyDevelopmentSite which I altered before submitting for professional reasons.  

Looking back at my before-SGV-self [nearly] six months ago, I didn’t expect I’d be the kind of  grown-up I am today. Everything feels surreal, everything happened so fast that I have no choice but to woman-up and deal with things which do not naturally happen to me and my maturity level has been drastically increasing I kind of find it hard to catch up to. I can feel that every aspect of my life now is very different from what I have six months ago.

I was someone who enjoyed college [and review] so much that even the basic definition of Audit was not basic for me after all. Terms like “Test of Controls”, “Substantive Tests” and “Risks” don’t make sense to me and PAS’s were, but numbers, made for bonus questions in accounting quiz bowls.Working with the people with very  admirable intelligence and are generous enough to share them, pressured inspired me to work extra hard so I can fully understand the life I signed up for.

But for someone who spent her college in an environment where freedom is valued as much as the oxygen we breathe, this employment is indeed, very life changing. Back then, the way I live my life was solely my responsibility, I go to school if I want to, I don’t go to school if I don’t feel like going to especially if I was out partying the night before. Now,I have to wake up really early so I won’t be late for work (hey! 6am is like 3am back in college) and play “Survival of the Fittest” with the other commuters on a daily basis or hail a scrappy taxi with a dysfunctional air-conditioning system and would curse for paying him the exact bill.

Everything went smoothly I felt like I was God’s favourite daughter until I was assigned, along with the other new hires, in an engagement which tested the totality of my being. I always hate being told what to do, let alone make me do things I don’t like. Right! Shit happens but you have no choice but to be extra patient and deal with it.

Without a doubt, this isn’t college anymore!

On a contradicting note, being the BS-Accountancy,Major in extra-curricular that I was back in college, the very demanding workload my job is putting me through is almost similar as the work load I have back in college. Series of sleepless nights and no weekend club was and is, but normal.

Frankly, I didn’t expect I would enjoy this job I planned dreamt of having since junior year. I just signed the job contract because most, if not all, of our alumni work here. I think, God loves me so much he placed me in a cluster where I can, somehow, be my college-self and would make leaving very hard. Yes, I don’t see myself leaving in the next 6 months.

This experience is equated to learning I will always be grateful for.  Not everyone is given the opportunity to work in the country’s number one (and world’s number 3)audit firm and in the market group of their choice. There is indeed a surplus of blessings in my life right now.

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Say hello to my temporary/training ID!

testing the lens my childhood friend gave me for passing the boards! haha!

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Posted this for like a month ago.. yeah! I think I’ve moved on!
I know this is one of the “put that in your diary not as a facebook status” posts and this may sabotage my career but I’m afraid I’d die of heart attack if I won’t let this out. 

It’s sad that I missed the most awaited part of the job I planned and dreamt of having since junior year, it pains me that I’m just a week away from “Auditors’ Nirvana” yet I have no choice but to leave the team only to be enslaved by the company I loathe the most since time immemorial.

It pains me even more that I missed a lot of experience only to be laughed at and mocked by the people who think highly of themselves and look at us like we are the lowliest creatures ever existed in this so called universe (okey, a little exaggeration here).

I never complained about working overtime and even on weekends simply because I enjoy what I do. I don’t care if I have to do things for free, FF as i may sound, but i get sad when my seniors/in-charges would tell me not to come in the office during weekends.

Impossible as I may sound, but I am always excited to go to the office everyday cuz I know there’s something I can look forward to. I don’t get stagnated cuz there’s so much to learn.

Now? I’m physically exhausting myself to death and learning nothing, except, of course, I can now tell the brand and model of computer equipment just by looking at the serial numbers. Those were the 8 most degrading, most heart breaking and most embarrassing days of my life and it sucks that there are still 15 more days before I can get myself out of this hell-like place, or maybe this is the hell, itself. 
Everyday feels like Death March and real life adaptation of Les Miserables rolled into one.

*now singing: do you hear the people sing, singing the song of angry men, it is the music of the people who will not be slaves again* 

I swear on my ancestors’ grave I’ve never been this miserable all my life. Miserable enough I, literally, cried myself to sleep for 5 consecutive nights while mentally drafting my resignation letter. 

I’m not innately good but I believe I’m not that bad, or maybe, I did terrible things in my past life that I deserve a karma this worst.

I don’t think I’d be this emotionally disturbed if only the client would regard us like human beings. rules are rules but a little consideration won’t hurt you. Yes, we are bound to do the service but we are still humans. Are you??? Or do you even know what humanity is? maybe not, so you don’t know how to act like one.

Maybe I’m just overreacting, maybe i’ve just gotten used to being pampered by the clients especially the last one. Well, life, indeed, is not always a bed of roses but my irrational self still can’t accept that this hell is happening to me!!! 

Patience? I swear I tried… hard.. I guess, I need to try harder though I believe I don’t need this kind of patience in the ordinary course of my life.

This is the part of my mortal existence I will never tell my grand kids about someday! (Yes! I’ll have grand kids someday!!! I’ll work on that later!) I want to believe, God is just testing me but I miss feeling my worth! please don’t make me doubt God’s plans for me.

I just miss the job I vowed my heart and soul to!

I just miss the life I ORIGINALLY signed up for… 

*last rant about this misfortune cuz I’ll try to look for and hopefully sooner, look at the bright side.

cuz right now, my news feed is full of my schoolmates’ rants about their grades and being the inggitera that i am, i tried logging in with my CRS account and there! painful reality that my college doesn’t want me anymore :’( haha

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cuz right now, my news feed is full of my schoolmates’ rants about their grades and being the inggitera that i am, i tried logging in with my CRS account and there! painful reality that my college doesn’t want me anymore :’( haha

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Patient no. 9683 revived from coma!! Waaaah!
Nikito’s back! Been in coma for 4 months!!!
Thankz columbia photo!

Patient no. 9683 revived from coma!! Waaaah!

Nikito’s back! Been in coma for 4 months!!!

Thankz columbia photo!

Sometimes, i do believe, love exists…

Old couple dating at manila zoo a while ago.. Kiliiiig!

Sometimes, i do believe, love exists…

Old couple dating at manila zoo a while ago.. Kiliiiig!

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More space for my post-it notes!!!! Hihihi matatapos din kayo!

More space for my post-it notes!!!! Hihihi matatapos din kayo!

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My logout sheet yesterday! Yes, ladies and gentlemen, LOGOUT sheet!

While normal people are getting ready to go to their offices, i am just on my way home, catch a little sleep, then go back to the office!

I can smell another OT, i mean, ON tonight!! Wiiih! 


*surprisingly, i am enjoying and loving my job!!! Thank you Lord!

My logout sheet yesterday! Yes, ladies and gentlemen, LOGOUT sheet!

While normal people are getting ready to go to their offices, i am just on my way home, catch a little sleep, then go back to the office!

I can smell another OT, i mean, ON tonight!! Wiiih!


*surprisingly, i am enjoying and loving my job!!! Thank you Lord!

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Homemade Gourmet tuyo for dinner! Iiiih!

Homemade Gourmet tuyo for dinner! Iiiih!

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